Oh Crap! this is the windscreen of my RV. I've been in Kamloops for a few days and I just noticed this. Normally I'm quite organised but due to being so overwhelmed when I packed up and left - I have no idea who my insurance is with, who to call to get this fixed, and whether it's insurance or warranty?
It turns out that the wrong VIN was written on my documents so now there's no record of me purchasing this RV. Urrgghhh. This is when my world started to unravel and my usual go to's for grounding no longer exist. I can't curl up on the sofa and watch netflix and look at at the beautiful North Shore from my apartment. I can't go and buy ice cream without a 45 minute drive, and I can't pop over to a friend's place and have a cuppa tea.
And when some things start to fall over, sometimes it creates a domino effect and then you start to see the dark side of your current situation. I finally acknowledged the reality that the RV I bought is too small. Yes it has everything but basically there's no living space. I bought a very expensive collection of utilities on wheels. It has a toilet, a shower, a kitchen, a fridge and a bed, but nothing else. Where do I actually "live?" I know the idea of an RV is to get in the great outdoors, but the very smokey and hot outdoors is not very appealing. So I added on the fact that my intended income streams all ended up as unsuitable or fake and the extra miles I needed to travel due to fires and the visa allowing me to apply for a greencard is still at least a month away. Apart from that everything was great. I was definitely seeing the glass half empty.
I took my pup for a walk and looked at the beautiful sunset. I can always find something to ground me even in the more challenging times. The sky opened up with spectacular colours and I breathed them in like like a healing mist. I acknowledged my reality and just took in the present moment. Although I didn't sleep very well the next day I went for a great hike with some newly made friends. I got on so well with them and on the way back from the hike they had to stop in at an RV place. I took the advantage to go and sit in an RV that I really liked and had more than just utilities, it actually had living space. I said in my outside voice I'd love to switch this with mine. At that moment an Aussie guy piped in and said "I can make that happen." I laughed and said I don't think it would be possible. But I thought about it over night and the next day I went in and. . . .
. . .and here way days later - all switched out, no windscreen to worry about, living space galore and I'm so much happier. It feel like luxury in comparison to what I had, but it was the RIGHT choice for me, it still had everything I needed, but also was cheaper, more roomy, and just felt like home. I lost money in the switch and I felt dumb for not realising in the first place that the sales guy had me hook line and sinker when I bought the first trailer. It would have saved me some stress, but I now know to ground myself first, anywhere using nature, then I can think clearly what my needs are. This feels like a home base, rather than just somewhere to eat, sleep, clean and poop.
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